As we approach the end of 2019, it’s not just the end of another year. It’s the end of a decade. A lot has happened in the past 10 years. I have experienced the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. When I reflected on the decade during a meditation, I was overcome with emotions with tears streaming down my cheeks. These were not tears of sorrow or sadness, but of love and deep gratitude for myself, for how far I have evolved and grown. I am not the person I was ten years ago. I have birthed several versions of me since then.
I sum up the last ten years with both highs and lows that include enduring the loss of both of my parents. Graduating from college with a bachelors in nursing. I served an a Commissioned Officer in the US Navy Nurse Corps and traveled through the South Pacific for two humanitarian medical missions. After serving 9 years in the Navy I resigned my commission after being selected for the rank of Lieutenant Commander. I worked as an RN in labor & delivery, the emergency room, pediatrics and the last five years in pediatric intensive care units. I watched patients take their last breath while witnessing the heartbreak of their loved ones. I took my first solo backpacking trip to Yosemite and have traveled solo throughout the world. I had my heart shattered into pieces after the end of my last relationship and I dealt with not knowing who I was as an individual. I slowly began to find my truth and step into my power as an individual. I began putting the pieces of my heart back together and remembered my worth. I realized what my purpose is and my passion for wanting to help others. I learned energy healing and have found gurus in all parts of the world.
I am most proud of myself for uplifting myself and overcoming the deep pain and sorrow that was in my heart. For learning to forgive others and most importantly myself. To forgive myself for not knowing better in the past. For doing the best I could with the knowledge and mindset I had at the time. For learning to love myself unconditionally and to be patient and compassionate with myself. We are always learning and growing and I had to learn to allow myself to be okay with where I was at on my journey and stop comparing myself to others. I am proud of myself for learning to be brave and courageous no matter what. To stop caring what others think and realizing the only opinion that matters is my own. To let go of friendships and relationships that weren't in my best interest. For being able to let go of material things in this physical world and learn non attachment. For learning self care and put myself first. For turning my dream into my reality. For being brave and taking a leap of faith and following my heart and my Spirit. For learning to trust in myself and the Universe.
I am still learning and will continue to learn every day. I am learning to be selfless and more compassionate. I am learning to live from my heart space. To always lead my with my heart and not my mind. To treat every person as they are another version of me. To love myself and others unconditionally.
What has your decade been like? What challenges have you navigated? Look back at the last 10 years and see that you are not the same person you were. Be grateful for this new person you have evolved into and are continuing to evolve into. What are you most proud of yourself for?
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